The past few months have been very hard. My life may look glamorous. I do have two very beautiful little girls and I love them dearly, but it's been tough lately. Joey and I may seem to have it together, but I'd be lying if I said we did. We bought a lovely home in 2012 and it's been alot of work. Very rewarding work. We love the house we bought. It's perfect for us. Most couples can't do what joey and Ive done till later on in life. It's alot of work. And to be honest.. I've been very upset on how much I actually see my husband. He's an amazing hard worker, but I miss my husband. Nothing is more important to me then him and my kids. Often I feel like a single mom and that's only because I'm at home with them and he's at work. He absolutely hates being away from us and misses us like crazy like we miss him. Alleah understands when dad is working or asleep to go to work again. She just loves when dad comes home. She laughs and hugs him. They have an amazing bond. Raylee hasn't gotten to bond with him as much as Alleah, but Joey still loves his Raylee more then anything and I love watching him with her. I am tired of never seeing him. Tired of how much he's gone. Joey is great he keeps telling me to think positive and his time will come when he only has one job. Our goal is next August to buy Chem-dry and see how that goes. But right now, we have to stick with it and be each others support system. I appreciate everything he does. He works so dang hard. And I try my very best to be the best mother to our girls I possibly can. And a loving wife. I miss him incredibly, but the times I do see him I love. I love Mondays with him. I NEVER plan anything on those days. Those days are with him. You have to work hard to get somewhere or you'll fail or just stand still. This house is our home for our children. I love they're growing up here. Alleah learned how to walk here, turned one here, said her first words here, was potty trained here, and turned two here. We brought Raylee home for the first time here, learned to clap, dance, sit, and Ect here. I just wish joey was around to see them more like I do. I take a TON of pictures, but from here on out I am going to video tape them more often. That's my new goal. Be grateful for what you have. For what you work for. For what you will become in the future. Try your hardest and you will succeed. I love my family. I love my Joey. I love my girls. They are everything to me and I just want us to succeed :)
